Hey there, as we in America remember September 11 2001 a lot has been on my mind. A lot has changed in the last 11 years of my relatively short life and in a really short space of time too.
This year I became 21, I may or may not have mentioned that in January, I honestly can't remember anymore.
My boyfriend became my fiance and we are planning a wedding for next summer. He also now lives with me in the apartment I share with my father.
My beloved mother passed away in the late spring, leaving a gaping hole in my heart. I still have not found a way to truly heal yet.
A new family member has been joined to the family in the form of a lovely and cute kitten named Life.
I have given up on college again, this time taking time to heal and hopefully find a job, for once.
I have been reading and writing more, writing mostly in form of Role Play posts with friends, but writing non-the-less.
I have not given up on drawing but I have taken a step back from it. While my mother was in Hospital dying I drew a picture of myself resting against her bed with a little Eevee on her chest. I do plan on posting that picture someday just not right now.
Everything takes time, but time is fleeting and once it is lost it is lost forever. There are so many things I wish I could go back and do but right now I can't. The pain and sorrow leaves me drained but we all most move forward.
I share this now because in many ways I need someone who does not know personally to know me, understand who I am, and maybe, in a selfish way, I want to remembered by as many people as possible for as many things as possible. It is just so hard when you feel alone but know that you are not.